I had completely forgotten that I had ever started to blog. 2014 was along time ago. But I have been feeling the need to have somewhere to put down my thoughts. And honestly, I have rarely minded sharing my thoughts, with the notable exception of thoughts that might hurt those I love. Today, my one and only son, Sebastian, turns nine. What a roller coaster ride this kid has taken me on. While I would note that all kids are a roller coaster ride, my son from the moment of conception has determined to take the gnarliest path to get where he is going. I love all my kids for their differences and quirks, the strengths and their passions. But I have a love hate relationship with the fact that my kids are all mirrors, reflections of my strengths and weaknesses. If you pay attention and are open minded (and have an open heart), your kids will really show you all your flaws and force you to account for them.
I am enjoying writing this even if no one ever sees it. I don't imagine I'll ever become some famous blogger or anything (and truly, who in heavens would ever really want that, I can barely stand to read my own Facebook page). However, I like the idea of having somewhere to look back on my thoughts, my troubles, my joys, my life and I really do enjoy writing even if I have a hard time making myself do it consistently. Hell, the only thing that may be consistent about me is my inconsistency. I am not sure that if that is something I am supposed to accept about myself at this stage of my life (42 this year!) or if I am supposed to keep working at it.
